A bad cycle

To be nice. To be fair. To exhibit compassion, love and feeling. To listen. To try and hear what is being said with one's total being. What is it about things like these that engender scorn, pain, humiliation and fear? Why is trust flung back in one's face like a cup of cold coffee? Betrayal causes more betrayal. One is destroyed inside, and wants to return it upon not only the perpetrator, but anyone who comes within contact. How difficult is it to stop, to accept one's pain as part and parcel of this life, and move on. To be strong in one's self. To smile through the tears. Not to accept the same situation over and over again, but to accept and claim one's pain for oneself without inflicting, without rebounding it back or upon another. There is pain and there is pleasure, and everyone has the same fate as everyone else.